Finally, I am back online! We still have no power at our home so hubby and I, along with our pups had to “relocate” to a temporary place further out. But, we are safe. We are healthy and we are very fortunate in that we can do this.
(Here’s that coconut again that we found on the beach before Sandy hit from my last post — I really like that tough coconut — don’t you? It has braved a helluva storm).
Our power went out the day of Hurricane Sandy — she was a bee-otch, y’all and let me tell you, the next time the weather-gasmic people tell us to leave, we will leave. We had battened down the hatches and were watching a Sopranos episode on a previously-charged 7” screen of a portable DVD player when we heard pops going off outside. The wind was screaming and we got up to look outside our front door. Water was sluicing down the streets and it looked like a river. It was coming up to our front door and our back door.
I didn’t know how much I would suck (panic-wise) in these situations, but I learned that about myself. Not very well — I thought that dunes were flattened and that was the ocean coming up, about to take us away. I was terrified. Hubby stayed calm. This raging of wind and rain went on for hours and we’d keep a check outside to make sure we weren’t going to be washed away. But, once you’re there, you’re there. It was the bay that came up to meet some of the ocean. We were protected by dunes. Those just down the street from us were not so lucky. The next day, people came out to explore the wreckage. The town in which I have ridden my bike, had lunch, talked to merchants — didn’t fare so well. I still haven’t processed it, I don’t think. But I know these people will come back — strong.
I have no pictures because I didn’t want to take those pics of others losing things and I’m sure you seen enough of the images anyway. Cars were nestled against each other — ruined, they had bobbled, hit each other and floated down the streets. Pieces of boardwalk had floated blocks and landed in parking lots. We saw boats that had floated out of marinas and were in the middle of the road, then pushed over into parking lots. We had no cell service, no way during the storm in which to call even if there was an emergency. There’s still no cell service, as far as I know, where we were.
Long gas lines. Police, national guard and FEMA people everywhere. The Red Cross set up in a grocery store parking lot. One night, a helicopter hovered low over our neighborhood casting spotlights onto everyone’s houses, down the streets. We’d hear rumors of looting.
But the good of people and strangers far outweighed the “bad.”
Some people have lost everything. We still have our possessions which I’m glad — but something like this changes you. I don’t even know how yet. I feel grateful that we’ve not experienced the loss that others have. Then I feel badly because I feel grateful. I feel guilty. Then I’ll become depressed or panicked and then feel bad about that. I know I’m not making sense. What I’m saying is this: I’m okay and everything that matters to me is okay.
Hubby and I would go out during the day to places that had power and we’d talk to people in the same situation as us — some who had it far worse, they’d lost everything — and it reinforced my belief in the goodness and kindness of people. I’ll be writing more about this in future posts.
Thanks to all of you who personally emailed me — you have no idea how much that meant to me – no idea. I’d cry sometimes when I’d see your concern — thank you, thank you, thank you. Sometimes email would come through on my phone and I couldn’t reply back, the service would die. Honie, Audra, Grippy, Sandee, Weebs, Margarita, Mike, Le Clown, Sue, Cathy…and some of you left messages on some of my posts — thank you, thank you. Did I miss anyone? If I did, I’m so sorry — but thank you.
I’ve missed you so much and I’ve got some catching up to do on all your blogs, now that we’re settled here for awhile. Whatever tomorrow brings, it brings.
I am so grateful for you. I promise my posts will be more upbeat in the coming days.
Much, much, much love to you, my dear, wonderful, beautiful friends.
Brigitte, it is wonderful to hear you are safe. You have been sorely missed since the storm, and we have all hoped you and others are okay.
I think the conflicting emotions you feel are completely normal for what you’ve gone through. I’ve heard the survivors of other disasters express very similar feelings. So don’t worry if your next posts aren’t upbeat. If you need to let other emotions flow, we’ll understand. You’ve got a lot of friendly shoulders to lean on with readers like me.
So take care of yourself and know that we are all relieved to hear from you!
JM, I am sorry if I missed you….I don’t even know if I got all my messages, but thank you so much, my friend. I am overwhelmed at the friendly shoulders – yours included – that have asked about me. thank you. xxoo
Glad to hear you are safe – Take Care and Be Safe:)
Thank you, Craves! xo
I’m so glad you’re back and safe. I was thinking of you this morning – along with Madame Weebles (who was able to post yesterday so I knew she was faring well). Stay well – you havea lot to work thru in your mind and world. The ones you love are safe – that is what counts. I look forward to your future posts. If you need anything – just ask –
Hey Ruta, thank you so much. Things are good. We are fortunate. xxoo
All is right with the world again. So so so glad to see you back to the banter. You know what you’re feeling, all of those emotions, you’ll process through them and everyone, your friends now plus those who meet you in the future are the fortunate ones because this kind of event most definitely makes a person stronger. Stronger for having come through it, but also stronger for allowing others to lend a helping hand or a word of encouragement. It means a great deal to people to be a support. It really does give a person confidence to know they are being a help to someone else. So, thanks Brigitte for boosting our confidence!
Honie, you are so nice. Thank you — it is you and these other wonderful people who have boosted my confidence. We didn’t experience ruin the way some have, but the people that we have talked to and who given support — to the towns that had power and let those of us who didn’t come in, rest and plug things in so we could have power, it’s astonishing, the way people are so kind and wonderful. Thank you for your continuing emails — you are so wonderful. much love. xxoo
B– you don’t have to be upbeat. You have been traumatized. I had no idea you lived so close to the water. You are safe and out of harm’s way, let the rest just happen as it happens. Glad you are back and thank you for bearing witness to all of this to those of us so far away. xoxox
Thank you, Maggie. Things will be back to normal soon and people will come back even stronger. Thank you. xxoo
Brigitte, you’ve been missed! I’ve been thinking about you non-stop since Sandy hit. The healing will take time, I think. Sending positive thoughts your way. . .T.
Hi T, it’s nice to be missed and I’ve received lots of good thoughts, prayers and positive vibes. Thanks my friend.
You had me worried Brigitte! Glad everything is (relatively) okay, and you two are safe.
Thanks, Mike. Everything will be okay and thanks for your continuing to check in — you have no idea how much it meant. xo
Oh, Brigitte! I’m so happy you’re ok. What an ordeal you’ve been through. I’m relieved you’re safe. I was thinking about you and was worried for you. I don’t think you need to feel like you need to be upbeat. I think you should do what you feel you need to do, and you must have so much to process. I’m here for you and I wish you well.
Hi Bumble, thank you. Others went through a far worse ordeal and we are safe and warm. Thanks so much.
Holy smokes! Gosh, what you have been through. I’m glad you are safe and hope life returns to normal soon for you and your community.
Hi Robin, it is traumatic but the house we were in still stands — no major damage. We are very lucky and life will return to normal sooner for us than for others so those thoughts and prayers for those who have lost everything are so appreciated. Thank you.
It is tragic. The devastation breaks my heart.
So glad you are okay–you are such a bright ray of sunshine that you were so missed. I don’t know what else to say–but I have been worried about you–I was one of those who left messages on some of your posts–have not figured out how to email you (I am a little dim-witted). You and Madame Weebles are back–all is right with the world.
Hi Lou Ann, thank you. It’s nice to be back and to be missed. You’re not dim-witted! Thank you — I see, now that I’m catching up, your thoughts and well wishes — thanks so much. xxoo
How my heart breaks to hear of such distress and loss. You make total sense as you’re processing a disaster and all that it means. I’m sure you’re right, it will take a bit of time to figure out what it all means to you. God bless you and your family and many prayers to all who are suffering. SO happy to have you back!
Hi Michelle, I am okay! Promise and thank you so much for your kind thoughts and words. Thank you for the prayers and well wishes, they are appreciated — please continue to do so for those not as fortunate as me. It will take time for those who lost everything, but things will get right again and I’m glad to be back. xxoo
Brig, I have been thinking about you, so very glad you are safe. I am sure it will be hard to come to terms with all the destruction and the randomness of it all in the days ahead. It is just like you to see the good and light in the aftermath though, and I think that is the kind of spirit that will carry you through.
Hey RG, thank you. I am safe. Life is good. You’ve put it exactly right — the randomness…that’s it. I am so fortunate and so grateful. Trust me, there are those who’ve gone through much worse and they have a light as well. I am amazed at the strength and spirit of human beings. So much good out there. So many good people. Thank you, RG.
Thank you for this post, I am glad that you guys are safe. We have been through a few floods out here in CA and the difficult part for us was that every time we had a heavy rain afterwards those anxious feelings bubbled to the surface once more. As time passed, they eased up. Talking to your neighbors and helping others is beneficial to everyone’s piece of mind and sense of community. Good luck and God Bless.
Hi Allan, thank you for stopping by and yes we are safe! And thank you for the advice…we have great neighbors and it does help.
So glad you, your husband, and your home are okay.
Thanks, Nashville, things will start getting back to normal soon, I’m sure.
Good to hear from you and very glad that you’re safe. It sounds like you’ve had it quite rough, but you’re doing what it takes to get through it. Seeing the after effects of Sandy’s rage in your own community must be very painful. There was minimal damage by me in Upper Manhattan, and I know I just got very lucky — this time.
Hi V, thank you. It was rough, kind of scary and it wasn’t pleasant having no power for over a week, but things are good and will only get better. Glad you were okay. I have a friend who works in Manhattan and he said parts of it look as if nothing happened! So glad you and yours are safe and warm. Thank you for stopping by.
i’m really glad to hear you’re all in one piece, Brig. You’ve been missed. Be well, my friend.
Thanks, Em. Nice to be missed and I missed all of you so much. xo
WHASSUP, B?????? I’m so glad to see your post. I know we emailed earlier but I’m glad to see you back here. I know you’ve endured an awful lot—yeah, it could have been worse, but it still sucks. Here’s hoping that normalcy is restored to you soon.
Hey Weebs!!!!!!! How are you, my friend? Better now, huh? It does suck, but it’ll get better. You too, my dear friend. xxoo
So glad to hear you’re safe. you’ll be fine. helping out in the neighbourhood as I imagine you, maybe, to give out, just because it feels good when you’re ok, to be able to give out a bit to those a little (or a lot) less ok than yourself. and take care, now. everything should be fine. Have another walk by the beach, you never know what you’re going to find there, surely peace of mind at some point; even after raging, the ocean still has a soothing effect.
Thinking of you again.
Hi Juls, we are safe and thank you. Everything will be fine and you are so nice to stop by and add your kind comments. Thank you. xxoo
So glad you’re okay. Here I thought you lived in California. Not sure what I was thinking, because I now remember a post you did on New York. Well, I’m sorry you’ve had to go through this. How horrible to witness and experience.
Thanks, Carrie. Appreciate your kind thoughts and words. I’m okay and it’s good to be back among all of you, my good friends.
I understand about not taking the photos…and about your fear!
Thank you. :). xo
Glad you are okay! Stay safe!
Thanks, Jackie. We will and we are.
So glad to hear you are alright. Having watched all the damage that storm has caused and how cold it is there with no power makes our summers here at 115 degrees seem like a cake walk. I know I whine all the time about the heat but being from Montana I know about cold weather. I can’t imagine all that people are having to deal with right now with no power, let alone all the destruction Sandy left in its path. Makes one humble indeed
Thanks, D. Everyone whines and we all take things for granted. It’s okay and thank you for stopping by and your nice comment.
i am so glad you posted Brigitte. I have been thinking of you and now with this Nor’easter– ugh. Awful simply awful weather and circumstances!
It does my heart good to see your post.
Be well and stay positive.
Hi Audra, thank you. Everything will be alright and it’s nice to be able to post again! I will and thanks, friend. xxoo
Welcome back brigitte. I’m so glad that you and your family are safe. Sorry you had to leave your home, but thankfully it is only temporary. My heart and prayers go out to all those living along the east coast.
Hi Healthy, thank you, it’s nice to be back. We’ll be fine and my hope is that others will be back to normal soon too!
Glad you are okay. Would have been terrified if I had seen all that water coming towards me. Take care.
JD, thank you — it’s so nice of you to stop in and comment and I must visit you more. I will, many thanks, my friend.
Very glad to hear from you and know you made it through this bad ordeal better than most. Will continue to pray for those less fortunate and darn, so good to see you here 🙂
Hey Lynne, thank you. So good to see YOU here. xo
Brigitte, I’m so happy to hear you’re okay. I figured you’d be busy in the aftermath just trying to settle back down to a somewhat normal life but nevertheless, you were greatly missed. As you said, so many others were not so lucky but most people are adopting an attitude of understanding and gratitude that is really moving to see. So glad to see you back. I’m sending positive thoughts and energy to the East Coast!
Hi Lillian, yes it’s still a bit busy and will take more time but eventually things will get back to normal. Thank you for the positive vibes, Lillian — they are soooo appreciated.
Ah, Brigitte, what a relief, dear friend, to know you and hubby are safe! Baby steps, dear one. Baby steps! xoxoM
Thanks, Margarita and thanks so much for your personal followups as well. xxoo
Glad you are back! Take good care. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Thanks, Britta. I’ll share more in the future…maybe. Still settling down from all this.
Sending you virtual supportive hugs! Glad you are back but more importantly, that you and yours are safe. Be well.
Hi E, I will take them — thank you so much!
Sending you all good wishes from Victoria, Brigitte. I’m so happy to hear that you are okay. It sounds like you have been through a horrifying ordeal. Hang in there, my friend!
Hi Sally, it was pretty weird and it’ll take time, but we will hang in there. Thank you. xxoo
So glad you are okay. Powerful story and words and reality. Much to be thankful for, you said it so well about being overwhelmed and thankful and guilty. You are amazing, and thanks for the word!!!
Thank, you Isa…I am very grateful and what a nice thing to say. Thanks so much.
You have been missed and thought about my dear. I’ll continue to hold you in my heart. Tough days behind you, tough days ahead. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming… And when life hands you coconuts, well Buffett would say to break out the rum and make a bra from the shells.
It’s nice to be missed and thank you so much. Love that sentiment about the coconut — now that sounds like a plan. I always loved coconut bras. ;).
I’ve been at work all day, but I was so happy to read your post at lunch and know that you’re okay. You have so been in my thought’s, prayers, energy healings – whatever you want to call it. Holding you up with good thoughts and knowing you were safe. Write about it as you feel you can, I think it helps and you’re such a great writer, you’ll be able the heal quickly as you do. It’s great to have you back in the fold.
Hi Cathy, thank you — those thoughts, prayers and energy healings work! And I so appreciate them. It’s nice to be back. xxoo
I’m so glad you’re safe honey (((((hugs)))))
Thank you, Vikki. xx
I don’t think anyone will fault you for taking care of business and real life. My heart continues to ache for everyone in New York and New Jersey… most especially for me, the folks on Long Island, because I have so many friends and family members there and many are deeply affected.
I pray to God and the universe to heal the hearts of those impacted financially, physically and emotionally.
All my love and concern,
SO glad you are okay, so sorry to hear about your little town–I hope it does, along with the rest of the area, come back soon and stronger than ever.
Next time, if there happens to be a next time, leave. Please. X
Relieved to hear you are safe Brigitte. I cannot imagine what it must have been like for you. Take care. Teresa x
I’m so happy you’re okay! Sorry to hear about those around you. I understand why you say you feel guilty, but you have no reason to. You went through something terrible too, and it’s okay to have feelings about that.
I think this post is already pretty upbeat, considering what you’ve gone through. I’ve heard stories of flippant hipsters playing frisbee while Sandy raged, romantic tales of communities huddling together by candle light. And then I’ve heard stories of gun toting New Yorkers hell bent on fuel. That Home Depot was a scary place. Depending on what each person lived through, it affected their view on the fellow man. I think it’s great you are able to weigh out the good, the bad, the fair and unfair. All the best in the days, weeks, ahead to you and your town.
Glad you made it out okay, Brigitte! It’s funny the things that make us afraid (although a monster hurricane is not a silly or irrational thing to fear when it’s happening). Sometimes I will surprise myself by being brave in a scary situation, and then other times I embarrass myself by turning into a six-year-old girl when a bee flies into my office.
where are you?
Sorry, I’ve been off the radar for a few weeks. I’m so glad to read that you’re all right, but feel for the terror you went through during the storm. Storms are awful and humble you more than almost anything. Look forward to hearing more of your posts of the aftermath and rebuilding.
Hey Honie! Why am I just now getting this?? Hope you are wonderful and miss you.